I'll kill myself because I'm gay

The Daily Italian wrote: Italian homophobic , " I'll kill myself because I'm gay"

   28/10/2013

   ROME WAS 21 YEARS OLD .

   I'm gay , I'll kill myself . " Of him we know only that he was 21 years old, who lived with his family in Centocelle and was a university student. Saturday Night wrote a letter , then he walked the streets of his neighborhood , he reached the Casilina , entered the area of the former pasta factory Pantanella , managed to enter one of the apartment buildings used as offices and homes, has reached the terrace and launched from the eleventh floor. In the void of the darkest night , a Saturday night where solitude had made ​​her feel stronger.

   His letter is an indictment against homophobia : " Italy is a free country but homophobia exists and who these attitudes has to deal with his conscience ." Words that denounce a state of suffering , and it is striking that the grief-stricken parents have told police the police San Lorenzo , occurring after the tragedy , they did not know homosexuality of his son, who had not noticed his confusion and even were able to say that he had suffered persecution . But perhaps even this does not want to see , not wanting to understand by the family , was the origin of the drama that is consumed in that building unknown to him : the boy had not had the courage to declare their homosexuality neither her father and to the mother. It is more common than you think for some curse, in Rome itself , where the Church is showing openings to this problem, with Pope Francis, who in the early days of his pontificate he said something revolutionary in the field of sexuality ("Who are I to judge a gay " ) , in the last year were three guys who decided to take his life . One-quarter, just 16 years old , he tried and thankfully did not succeed .

   In November last year a fifteen-year student of high school Cavour, had taken his own life by binding a scarf around his neck. A similar tragedy this summer in a building in the area Torraccia , where suicide was a teenager just 14 years old : " No one understands my play ," he wrote before jumping off the roof of the house . Last May , another student of 16 years, originally from Romania , had thrown himself at recess from a third-floor window of his school , a technical institute in Marconi area . Fortunately, a car had softened the blow and the guy got away with it with some fracture in the legs. The latter suicide caused a lot of emotion and an avalanche of comments from the homosexual organizations . " Another tragic fact , expect to have more information , but if it is true that this time was to kill a gay guy , we are faced with yet another case . The suicide or attempted suicide of a young gay men are alarming , "said Fabrizio Marrazzo , spokesman for the Gay Center . Then he gave some given ; " At our Green Line Gay Help Line 800,713,713 receive 20,000 contacts per year and our data shows that a homosexual out of ten at least once in his life he thought about suicide . It's time to say enough is enough , institutions give an urgent answer in the fight against homophobia and in broadening the scope of the rights of homosexuals. "

   The gay world is mobilized and Rome took to the streets . " Parliament must pass a law against homophobia ," will be the watchword . " The suicides of many young homosexuals should be considered a form of social violence equal to femicide ." The discretion of the student's parents Centocelle , the fact that he committed suicide in a building where no one knew him , has made it more difficult to reconstruct its history. It is not known if in a matter of friendships have been discriminated against or if there was a precipitating done in the last hour . It remains that letter : " I'm bad , I'm sorry ," he wrote to his parents.

I really do not understand how it is possible that in a society so open to sex than the last century, can still be so closed towards homosexuality !
Some kids could not reach to suicide if the company ceases to use " different" as a scapegoat for their own stress and frustration , as well as propia rudeness ! !
For me, if something is wrong with the youth of today , it is always the parents' fault that we are behind ! Because if an unnatural mother teaches her 6 year old son who is just taunt compagnetto weaker as you think it might be this child when she reaches the age of 16 ? It will probably be one of the many bullies that loom in schools (public and private that they are )!
Now, ignoring the speech of the parents of the children " others" , I firmly believe that nothing out there can affect the self-esteem of a boy if he has an open dialogue with his family and is not afraid to show himself with their parents . Because no matter how ruthless the world around us , the real strength comes from his family (parents, but also friends if there really are ) . You can make fun of the whole world, can spit at him, but we can decide with whom to stay , with whom they live , those who attend , how much and where we want! And that makes irrelevant the fact that there are people around who can hate us , why not be able to hurt us if we were not us who we allow it , giving heed to what he says or giving importance to what he does !
Everyone should think about living his life without thinking about that of others, but since this is not possible by a lot of people , we try not to get involved from their "demands" .
As a teenager , it seems that the world revolves around the school and what they think or do our comrades . Why over the world, there is only the house and the studio . So you feel the loser who stays at home with mom and dad , and that he has no friends , and that worse is teased because he is different , and maybe you do not even have the courage to talk to your of your diversity , because you know not approverebbeo . So constantly live in a prison, with your freedom mutilated , and a sense of guilt mixed with shame so profound as to make you sink !
It seems that life ends all there ! Because you're born and you're growing up in an environment not yours ! And you feel the intruder being carried off the field !
Are thousands of kids who see it that way . They do not realize however, that life does not end there! That this is only the beginning! Why then , the time comes that they can decide themselves of their lives ! They can build the environment in which to live and grow! They can be themselves at last!
The world is so big for us ! And this is an opportunity ! A great opportunity ! It gives you a way to leave a circle of people (although often composed also by their families ) , and reach out to those who want us exactly as we are!
After school , will the university, which is already a totally different environment from school because they are very large and dispersed . Where everyone thinks more to himself than to the neighbor. Then take over the job, the place where it only matters what you give from the business point of view , and where your private life remains outside . As for friends, you who you choose to , calmly and without fear that you scoff . And do not forget their own interests , their own purposes , their own desire to build ! Beyond the family and friends , there is a personal passion . There are our attitudes ! What do we want to be, what we want to become ? Hairdressers , nurses , architects, engineers , accountants ... ? ! And with regard to entertainment , what do you get pleasure? Ensure recognition of your passion for the cinema , food , travel , sports , research, everything that makes you feel good .
Life gives us the opportunity to appassionarci and accomplish so many things . Everything you see around you are not the dreams and needs someone to put into practice ! You will realize that things are not so large as to be minimally comparable to a very small environment such as the school and the family roof .
And when you feel alone , ask for help , look around, and you'll discover that just are not there at all!

Why coming to suicide? Because for the first time in their lives, they realize they can do something useful for themselves, stop the pain by death! They are like wild birds, locked up in a cage, they die. For these kids is the same. You can see in the cage and know that they have way out, they understand that the only way out is death. And 'this certainty that is wrong, guys! For all of the above. Life is not just limited to the school or a small group of people who hate you! Even though these people were 100, would be infinitely small in comparison to the 7 billion people who populate this planet! And now with all the media we have, realizing that we are not alone, that there are those who think like us and that there are some who understands us and has nothing against us, it's really, really easy! Just search for, just ask! Just a scream, not to get to the fall!

jupiter wrote:google translate it is not reliable...it would be better if you used a dictionary or something 'cause otherwise it's a mess

even with a dictionary it could be a mess. Think it needs someone to speak the language

Yes you're right!
I hope to speak better time after time.